Sometimes I Write

Although i can only hear your voice in my dreams, 
I feel as though you’re next to me.
Don’t let this distance keep me from you.
Don’t let pictures and voices hold us back.
My feet are firmly planted in this land of shattered dreams and disturbed realities.
One purpose, one aim,
Once again on a path worth fighting for.
Don’t let my silence offend you,
For no words can i put together to describe these emotions.
Come on lets hurry up and wait.
You know where my heart is,
And i know what you’re looking for.
I’m right here.
Unique as i am you see me as someone even better.
For you anything.
This heart still beating weakly

The things we face each day are becoming more intense.
The never ending battle with things that make no sense.
The constant pushing from our parents to succeed.
We don’t know in return, we don’t know who to believe.
Problems keep happening from the brain and to the heart
And everything that you have just seems to fall apart.
When giving up seems like it’s the only thing to do but with you here I’ll get through.

Hold me closely to you.
Don’t leave.
will I get through?

Just don’t let go the future awaits with all the problems in the world it’s hard to concentrate.
Stay in control, do the best you can.
Someday you will find someone to lend a loving hand.

To the author of this dream
To the maker of these wings I will fly with tonight
Words fail to touch my thanks
They hold no weight and leave us cold
You told me to sing so here’s my song

Why must I suffer, when I know you’re safe?

Why must I drown, when you’re nowhere near the water?

All these things tie me down.

All these feelings are like shackles.

Is this love?

Or the disease inside me?

I will rip my chest open,

Take this heart that can barely beat alone.

It’s all I can give,

For I am cursed,

I am broken,

I am crumbling,

Despite this, am I worth saving?

Your smile says yes,

Your eyes pierce my veil.

Yet I’m still drowning.

I had thought you’d be safe after it ended,
I was wrong, I was wrong.
now everything you said, you wouldn’t do
is exactly what transpired.
why, why, why
do these feelings, scar me like knives?
i was waiting for you, and now it seems its over for me.
i guess i’ll just sit here and scream…….
And i’ll sing of what could have been, and i’ll whisper the words i was too afraid to say, and my voice will break when i sing your name.
i’ll fall back to where I started.
into the shadows my dreams drift,
the frost has returned to this heart.